... regarded myself as someone who was fair no matter the situation. I feel I have tried to gauge every situation unbiasedly and have always provided honest opinions if need be. And it has not always made me popular and I have learned from YOU that maybe lies and deceit get YOU friends... (But that is, as long as YOU can keep YOUr lies from being uncovered). YOU seem to do very well keeping track of YOUr lies and I have learnt maybe sometimes lying is necessary to be politically correct(or is it?) as I try to be nowadays. I have never always been this way and it is from YOU that I learnt such disgusting methods of obtaining friendships. YOU have put me in a lot of unnecessary situations. YOU've managed to cultivate hatred in me towards certain people but taught me to pretend I was perfectly fine with whoever this person was. But YOU still are a good person. YOUr inability to say 'No' has been a reason for the close friendships YOU have. YOU always manage to make people laugh which is amazing. I am glad YOU are a friend but sometimes when YOU do the things YOU do, I wish I never knew YOU. (yes it is that bad)
How can YOU be so adamant about something at the expense of someone YOU are apparently close to but so submissive to someone YOU hardly even know? That to me makes no sense at all.
I get angry but then I get over it and I realize that I have been doing very well now in terms of managing my reactions towards some of the things YOU do. But that does not mean I do not disapprove of some of the things YOU do. I am frustrated more than anything and I hope YOU can tell.
P.S.: Sorry. This is a brief departure from the usual stuff. But this is MY blog after all.
